As we were preparing to move out here I found out my teaching license wouldn't transfer. I thought I would be ok with it. I saw it as an opportunity to embark on a new adventure. I did look around for a chance to teach, but no luck. Jeff wanted me to go back to school to get my masters degree so I can teach again, but I just wasn't sure that was what I wanted. With the economy as it is, I was desperate for any job, and I would up with my present job. Although just a temp, I know I will remain there as a temp until the economy improves and they can hire me full time. The pay is pretty darn good and the job is so easy. I work on a computer all day. I work on spreadsheets and databases. I work on quoting, pricing and marketing. I am allowed (actually encouraged) to bring my ipod so I can listen to music while I work. The people in my office are wonderful, my boss Mark is fantastic, the "office politics" are really not that bad there. Dream job? I miss teaching. It isn't just the kids, although I do miss them. I really miss having a job where I feel like I make a difference. I miss feeling like what I am doing is important. I miss all the million little things I had when I was teaching; the look on a kids face when they got something they didn't think the would get, the look of pride when the finished an assignment. All of it. I have decided it is definately worth going back to school to get my masters degree. Over this spring I am going to take the GREs and apply to UK and Georgetown College to the teaching programs. They both have this great program where I can get temporary license and teach while I go to school to get my Masters. Then this summer when all of the teaching jobs open up for next year I can start applying.This past week I was looking through some of my work for poetry lessons I could let Ali's teacher use. She had asked for my help and I had a few ideas for her class. As I was looking through some of my student work, I came across this:Mr. Confused
He seems lost like he doesn’t know his way
doesn’t know where to go or what to say.
He looks for direction like on a map
but he’s in so deep there’s no reason to look back.
Dazed look in his eyes,
he has no clue so its no big surprise
he doesn’t know what to do.
This is the way he lives all the time
doesn’t know what to think
even with all these thoughts in his mind.
He dresses mismatched
his brains out of order and his thoughts
jump around like a fish out of water.
He runs around and doesn’t know what he’s thinking
he reminds me of a no headed chicken.
Mr. Confused has lots to loose according to his name
but he can’t decide what to loose or what to gain.
Eric
Eric is now doing 18-20 years for attempted murder. As depressing as this seems (and is to a point) it reminds me of what I miss the most. I miss the chance to be a bright spot for these kids. Someone who is positive in their lives. Someone who for a small period of time believes in their capability to suceed. Granted, after they leave my facility I can't control what they do. Many of them will go back to their old ways. But you know what? Eric was pretty darn good at poetry and I let him know it. While he was with me, I told him he had a knack for writing. I can't wait to get back to that.(and if you think that Eric's story is sad and should prove to me that what I do is in vain, be glad I didn't put Danny's poem up, he was murdered last year)